gosh. its boring. and its only monday. not going anywhere. stay at home like 3 out of 5 days. is that considered lonely? i feel like making friend with lonely. then probably, i wouldn't be so lonely. coz i got a friend called lonely. :) it will understand what i want to say, my feelings, my boredom because it's always around me. stare into the blank space with me, cry with me, listen to music with me. like a typical best of friend. then i'm not so lonely any more right? yeah. i suppose so too. oh yes. it will go out with me any time i want. i don't need to check the timing, because i know it will always be free for me. what a wonderful friend.
i played some guitar today. quite fun. i managed to some proper self-practising. i still can't learn from outside. my mum is putting me off. she keep saying this say that. say why don't i learn earlier? say why during the holidays i don't want to start lesson? loads of excuse from her. like she will ever agree. when i replied her "will you actually allowed me if i said then" she just kept quiet. i'm tired of that. she don't understand. she doesn't want to pay for my lessons. she thinks spending money on me is a total waste of money. she thinks i'll get tired of it very soon. whatever she thinks. i'm tired of them. i'll do my best. trying very hard to.
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